i've been thinking that...instead of chasing your dreams, you're just supposed to keep moving forward (see last post). then maybe, some dreams will catch me instead! yes..i think that's what i'm gonna do. no more looking for anything. i'ma just go with the flow of things. something will find me...eventually. until then, i can work hard on my current love...teaching/coaching. =]
things get overwhelming sometimes and its a great comfort to know that as long as i keep putting one foot in front of the other, i will get closer and closer to my destinations.
i just sorted through all my math stuff to gather the materials to study for my masters comprehensive exams. they are in one month...books are piled high and the schedule is tight. im very, very, very worried. but i also realize that all i can do is try my best. i can study and sleep and take care of myself to be in the best shape possible for these exams! and...so long as i work my hardest, then whatever happens, happens!
other than that...hMm...what else has been going on? i played in my first badminton tournament in like 2-3 years. it was fun, if nothing else. =] i've had a few nights of getting-away-from-myself. and again, i've been surprised by the supportive nature of everyone in my life. oh, and my colleagues certainly know how to brighten a day! <3
as i keep moving forward...i'm mostly looking forward to taking these exams, for the better or worse, getting through finals and then starting my 4th year as coach! =] i love my kids! *sigh* my first group of freshmen are now seniors... =[ rawrS. but BEFORE that...just another two months...one step at a time.
schedule's so tight that i hardly have enough time to eat and sleep. i miss LIFE. its just work and school and study; repeat. i enjoy going to school, i do! i just wish i had more time to spend on it. and i love work. and...
its too much.
i've lost motivation. i don't feel any rewards because i'm so busy prepping for the next thing.
i want to laugh. i want to sleep in. i wanna chill every now and then!
