something's missing...and i don't know what it is. things have been good lately! incredibly so.
family ive been spending more time with my family at home. and more time with my cousins now that we have the time. they are my home! =]
friends i've been out of it, especially with school work keeping me busy. but the Regs have been great supporters and motivators. and now that we can, also the best celebrators!
religion i've been a good girl and attending temple every week! and our little girls are soooo cute! =]
work the kids are learning!! and it feels good to hear them say, "ah-ha!" everyday. my colleagues have been wooonderful to work with and i definitely can't complain about the job. i still love waking up in the morning!
health ok, this hasn't been good. haha. studying kept me so busy that i didnt run or hit in 6 weeks! gah! but im gonna start trying to get back into it....tomorrow. haha. no, really, i am!
yep. lovely... and yet...something's missing. im still hopeful for...i dont know. once, many years ago, i was playing badminton in davis. i was getting the shots and just kind of...hitting. and my friend goes, "where's the heart?" and that totally struck me. i thought i WAS showing heart and trying my best, but i guess the fire was missing. i think thats what it is now. i think these 2 weeks off work (whoohoo!) will be good for me.
i'll leave you with a song. it's been stuck in my head, and on total repeat, all week...ready for love by legaci.
This was composed by a woman whose thoughts were screaming to be released.She picked up a pencil and in one shot, wrote a passage without pausing to proofread, filter or edit.When her heart was content with her reluctant admissions, she put the pencil down.She read it to herself, pierced her lips in accordance and tucked the passage away.It remains hidden amongst the normalcies of her everyday life, never to be mentioned.
I love you. I’ve always loved you. I’ve loved you my entire life. I don’t know how to tell you that without scaring you. The thought of having you back in my life means that the world can make sense. It means that the world is not cruel.
We didn’t grow up together and that’s okay with me. Time and distance is just a part of life. What about the here? And now? We’ve found each other; it’s a second chance. Let’s make something out of it! Hold my hand like you used to and let’s go through this together. I’m done with my exploring. I needed it and I loved it…but now, it all pales in comparison to you.
If this chance slips us by too, we may never come back here again. I don’t want to spend my whole life wondering, “what if.” Let’s start over. Hello, my name is…
...someone should have shown this to me many years ago...clearly, "further education" does not equate to having a life. i TOTALLY missed this concept when i started. *sigh*
This year for Christmas, I would like.. (haha, I just really enjoying making this list and praying that some hope and prayer gets answered! )
a new mp3 player because mine had its last (heart)beat just last month. =[ this cute zen mozaic works, or, of course, the pink ipod shuffle. nothing to fancy schmancy. i dont need many songs. =] just something to entertain me while i run. i like the mozaic cuz it has a radio feature. but the shuffle is so small, i love it too. lol. im not picky.
a navi cuz i don't have one and i ALWAYS get so freakn lost. =[ this Garmin nuvi 260w 4.3in. widescreen will suffice...thankyouverymuch!
new badminton shoes in size 7 cuz mine are too small. =[ 100w's will do. i like the baby blue. the 101w's in purple are a bit girlie, even for me... of course, pink would be better! i think the 100w's are cheaper too. =]
some athletic skirts for badminton. skirt length to be 12.5-14 inches max please. i prefer it to be 13-13.5 inches long though. shorts underneath required. usually a size small; medium if they run tight. any brand will do. =] in colors of red, pink, charcoal or even a navy blue...teal maybe? rose! haha...i already have black and white. =]
under armour tops. long sleeves or hoodies...full zip or sweaters, but not 1/4 or 1/2 zip stuff please. =D
this jacket, which i saw a while back and loved. haha. perfect for coaching! yaye logan! ok..any red/black/white track jacket would be nice too. i'll take either or....or both! cuz i really like this one. haha =D
Yes...That's my Christmas wish list this year. It would be nice if you guys posted yours up soon too. <3 [is it sad that if i add up the costs of all these items, its less than $500? one day, i'll start buying things for myself...haha. and geez, im such the tomboy! in pink. but look at the clothes. boy-ish much? lol]
i've been thinking that...instead of chasing your dreams, you're just supposed to keep moving forward (see last post). then maybe, some dreams will catch me instead! yes..i think that's what i'm gonna do. no more looking for anything. i'ma just go with the flow of things. something will find me...eventually. until then, i can work hard on my current love...teaching/coaching. =]
